It’s a weird feeling, to look back through time at the course of your residency career. It’s an even odder feeling to look back as one begins the interview process for Child Fellowship.
What a journey it’s been.
When your first outpatient tells that you ever met says she feels better than she has in five years, that she feels as if she has her life back, tears in her eyes, they are mirrored within your own. When you work with an LGBTQ+ youth and his parents in the APS, and it’s their first interaction with an inpatient psychiatry setting and you have the opportunity to walk through the process, hold their fears with and for them, and you hear later about how he’s doing better on Blake 11, your heart glows just that much more.
When you get to work with Social Workers on Blake 11 to tackle issues of diversity, work with nursing, other staff, you see just how many people are trying to make the world safe for all.
When you watch your class transform themselves in advocates, Katniss Everdeens, Girls on Fire, it makes you feel such joy to be part of a family with them. Getting to look out for medical students when they are trying to find their place has been a joy as well. And, as always, there have been so many mentors along the way, people who paved a better path for me. Select mentors who have been there as our class comes into our own.
Residency hasn’t always been easy, but, to know that I was never alone made all the difference. I have seen MGH become a better place because of the people there who are trying to safeguard the world as a whole. Progress is slow, but progress is happening.
Thus, in essence, I have seen the infinite power of psychiatry to heal. To change lives. That has been ever the privilege.
And, outside of the hospital, I continue to be who I am because of my friends from MIT. I have been fortunate to have such a support system of people who continually make me want to be a better person. I came home because of them. I am always home whenever I am around them.
As I finish this, my last perspectives at MGH, I’m sitting across from one of my best friends from college as we both do work and talk about how to heal the world. As she said, “These are the moments we must remember to have.”
I don’t think I’ve heard truer words in my life. Being with her, with my old friends, with the new friends I’ve made since being back in Boston, has made everything worth it. I suspect that being around them will always make everything worth it.
So, as I gear up to interview for Child Fellowship, no matter where I go next, I think that Boston will hold part of my heart. I suspect that it always will.